this seemingly unending path of self realisation

Never did I know how much there is to know.... And that too about your own self. Like most of the people, I always thought of myself as a complete individual, without a single flaw. Never ever did I accept my mistake, and never rendered some time to actually think who I am. In simple words, I had been an immature individual for around 20 years!! But somehow, fortunately dis life seems to change. I have actually learnt about my flaws, accepted them, and am dedicated towards changing them. And it is now that I learn how difficult is this path of self realisation and conversion. Conversion into a better human being. Now I understand the strength required in forgiving other, the pleasure involved in actually sacrificing for the sake of others, the difficulties involved in making this life worthy. Again and again I do fall. I say harsh words. I do not apologize. I get irritated and even feel jealous. But I am commited to change all this. Because I have understood the lifetime pleasure I will get if I sacrifice some momentary ones.
Though there is a long way ahead, I am happy to see small changes in me. I do not speak where I should remain silent. Criticism doesn't affect me. I am busy most of the times reading good books. And I have stopped unnecessary thinking. These are soothing changes that have brought confidence in me about myself. Some people do take my silence as attitude, but I know the people really worth in my life will understand me sooner or later.
This journey will take a long time, maybe a lifetime. But I am sure it will make me a better individual. This quest seems recursive in nature. The more I get to know, the more curious I become and the more curious I become, the more I realize how little did I know and how submerged I am in my imperfections. But even this gives pleasure. And seems to add meaning to my life. I am positive I will be able to solve some questions. Sooner or later.

Jai Hind!!

Faith

Hmmm....friends are leaving. It's too early to feel the pain of separation. And it's impossible to fill the void their absence is going to create. But it's His game. You never know what's in His mind. When is He going to put you in His tests. I'm sure the Almighty tests only those whom He consider strong enough to endure them. Others are kept aloof from these painful tests and also the rewards which we He keeps for his favourites. Here is what comes to action is the 5 letter, simple but extremely powerful word, "FAITH". We just need to have faith. In ourselves first of all, and them in whomsoever we like to have, not necessarily the God. Separation is indeed killing, but these are the small painful moments that will often incur in our life, and which will make us STRONG.
They make us more humble, more gentle and more loving then before. So I feel myself lucky that God chose me for His testing. I know I will not disappoint Him...
Jai Hind!!!