this seemingly unending path of self realisation

Never did I know how much there is to know.... And that too about your own self. Like most of the people, I always thought of myself as a complete individual, without a single flaw. Never ever did I accept my mistake, and never rendered some time to actually think who I am. In simple words, I had been an immature individual for around 20 years!! But somehow, fortunately dis life seems to change. I have actually learnt about my flaws, accepted them, and am dedicated towards changing them. And it is now that I learn how difficult is this path of self realisation and conversion. Conversion into a better human being. Now I understand the strength required in forgiving other, the pleasure involved in actually sacrificing for the sake of others, the difficulties involved in making this life worthy. Again and again I do fall. I say harsh words. I do not apologize. I get irritated and even feel jealous. But I am commited to change all this. Because I have understood the lifetime pleasure I will get if I sacrifice some momentary ones.
Though there is a long way ahead, I am happy to see small changes in me. I do not speak where I should remain silent. Criticism doesn't affect me. I am busy most of the times reading good books. And I have stopped unnecessary thinking. These are soothing changes that have brought confidence in me about myself. Some people do take my silence as attitude, but I know the people really worth in my life will understand me sooner or later.
This journey will take a long time, maybe a lifetime. But I am sure it will make me a better individual. This quest seems recursive in nature. The more I get to know, the more curious I become and the more curious I become, the more I realize how little did I know and how submerged I am in my imperfections. But even this gives pleasure. And seems to add meaning to my life. I am positive I will be able to solve some questions. Sooner or later.

Jai Hind!!